Happy Birthday Baby!

Well, I didn't get the second "Possibly Annual BBQ" together for this weekend like I had with the first one that occurred last year. Maybe it just wasn't the right time this time. Maybe we can still throw one together later this summer, just because.

We spent this weekend with family, in from out of town, and it was really nice. Other people spent time this weekend celebrating BIG wedding anniversaries and expected births. I know - I made their cakes! Our company left before church and this afternoon, especially in the quiet of this evening, I've spent lots of time deep in thought.

Today was Brian's birthday. He would have been 49 but he's missed the last two.

I keep thinking we'll do something special to commemorate the day, but today I chickened out. We talk about him here daily and I had neatly marked the day on Grant's calendar but I didn't point it out or even mention it to the boys.

Most of today's events weren't much different than any other given Sunday. But today, even more than most days, I've thought of Brian. In my heart, I miss him. In my mind, I celebrate his life and the time we had together. Sometimes I can still hear his laughter, knowing how my "occasional" backward approach of things would leave him smiling and shaking his head. And every day I see him in our two beautiful boys.

I take comfort knowing that today was a great day for Brian. I believe the last two birthdays have been the best he's ever had! It's hard for me to comprehend that he's no longer tracking the calendar but I know today, like every day, he is celebrating eternal life in the glory of God's presence!

Happy Birthday Baby!